Learning To Love You More




Assignment #52
Write the phone call you wish you could have.

Steilacoom, Washington USA



Me: Hello?
Him: Hey, its me.
Me: Me who?
Him: Andrew.
Me: Oh, hey.
Him: Hey, umm I was just calling to talk to you.
Me: About what?
Him: Just... talk.
Me: Oh... that's random (laugh).
Him: Yeah. I just feel like we had some loose ends that we should talk about.
Me: Yeah, I guess so.
Him: I just didn't want you to get the wrong idea, and I wanted to give you a chance for us to have a normal conversation without me being a complete dick.
Me: Oh... well thanks for considering that.
Him: Yeah no problem, I just want you to know that I think you're okay.
Me: Really?
Him: Yeah. I think you are truly one of the most amazing human beings on earth and I really want the best for you. You deserve only the best.
Me: Wow... that's the nicest thing you've ever said to me.
Him: Well, you needed to hear it. Especially from me. And it's all true.
Me: Thank you. I think I deserve to be happy.
Him: You really do! And me... I just can't do it the right way. And for that I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry Mariah, I really just feel so bad about all the things I've done to you in the past, and really I just wanted to call you to make sure you're doing good. Better, that is.
Me: Well, I mean I have my moments when I just want to die again and then I have moments where I think life's not so bad. But it was really fucked up what you did to me. And I want you to know that you really fucked me up. But I am also very happy that you called to tell me all these nice things. I hope you and your new girlfriend hit it off well.
Him: Thanks... you don't have to say that.
Me: You're right... I hope you guys don't work out.
Him: (laughing) That's the spirit.
Me: I just want you to know, that she wont love you the way I did.
Him: I know. I've realized this, and it makes me sad... but I know eventually I'll find someone who fits well with me.
Me: Yeah, I'm sure you will. But I hope I find that person first so that you can look at us and feel what I feel when I think about the fact that your dating someone else...
Him: I really would like to experience the pain your feeling so that I can really think about what I did.
Me: Me too. But I also want you to be happy. I don't ever want to see you unhappy... but that might be nice.
Him: I want you to be happy too. I just don't know how to do that.
Me: But you did make me happy! For a long time! I was just really upset when it was over and you did all those mean things. But you meant everything to me. I'll never deny that.
Him: Thanks. I just never meant to hurt you. And I want to make sure you know that you're beautiful. You're smart, and beautiful and an amazing person.
Me: Thank you, Andrew. It really does make me feel better to hear you say that.
Him: Good. That's all I needed to know.
Me: Okay.
Him: Alright, I loved you, and I wish you the best in life. You're beautiful, don't forget it.
Me: Thank you so much for calling.
Him: No problem ginger.
Me: Have a nice life. I loved you too.
Him: Later.
(hang up)