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Caroline
Boston, Massachusetts USA
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Me: Hi mummy.
Mom: Baby! How are you feeling? You sound happy.
Me: I am! Listen, I'm really confused as to why you raised me to believe that being fat was worse than being dead. Do you remember telling me that my face was hidden behind my fat and that I would only have a face if I got skinny?
Mom: Yes and I am deeply sorry for skewing your view of the world so dramatically.
Me: Well, I just want you to know that from 6 years old and 13 years old and now at 23 and for the rest of my life, I will hate myself no matter how thin I am and I will probably get cancer of the esophagus because of the many many years of bulimia. I'm also upset that you caused me such low self esteem that I had to get addicted to drugs and alcohol to deal with the confusion and fear. Now I don't even have any hatred left over to hate anyone but myself so don't worry, I'm not angry anymore.
Mom: But you are so beautiful and you look so healthy and happy. You must know that.
Me: Thats all I needed to hear.
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